A guildie of mine posted on the Zion forums about the myer's-brigg's/keirsey personality assessment, asking what everyone's type was. I always kind of wondered what Will's type was, and I wasn't surprised by his result. I consistently get INFP (Healer), and he is somewhere between INTJ (Mastermind) and INTP (Architect). I tend to think he falls a bit more into the INTP category, but they are both very similar.

I was amused, however, when I perused the keirsey.com section about relationships and romance. They give specific examples of how someone with a certain personality type might handle romantic relationships. I found this quite amusing.

Isabel is an Idealist Healer (INFP). She doesn’t really enjoy playing the field. That caused her too many heartaches. In college, her boyfriend was one of the most sought after good-looking guys on campus. However, he was shallow, inconsiderate, and straying. She stayed with him too long, hoping he would finally wake up to what he had in her. Later she started dating a man with whom she could laugh. She admired his intellectual capacity. He suggested that they live together. She said she’d live with him after marriage. They are now engaged.

(Aside from the "shallow, inconsiderate" part, I can pretty much relate to Isabel. Oh, and also the "one of the most sought after good-looking guys"...heh.)

Sam, an Architect (INTP) Rational, had a slow start in the dating game. However, he found his own niche in college by becoming the Brain. He was in a long-term relationship which died long before he was willing to write a death certificate. After some time had passed, he discovered another woman he’d actually known for years. He was hesitant to make a commitment after the last fiasco. However, when he suggested they live together, she said she would only live with him if they were married. That helped him make a decision to commit without feeling pressured.

I don't know precisely how accurate this example is to Will's experiences, but the last part of both caught my attention.

He suggested that they live together. She said she’d live with him after marriage. They are now engaged.

However, when he suggested they live together, she said she would only live with him if they were married. That helped him make a decision to commit without feeling pressured.


Interesting...

This holiday season has given me some time to think about this next year and where I'll be at the end of it. Without fully realizing it, I had kinda slipped into a depression over the last couple years. Maybe not the requires-months-of-theropy-and-medication kind of depression. And it wasn't a matter of feeling sad all the time. Or much at all really. But I lost all motivation to do...well, anything. I had no drive, no passion. And for a while, I felt like the only thing I was really any good for was to sit at home and immerse myself in the virtual reality that is World of Warcraft. I think maybe I just needed to know I was good at something. And I suppose it worked, in a way. In a few short months I climbed the ranks to become the top of my class specialization on the server. It's kind of fun being on top. I had people asking me for advice on talent trees, gear, enchants, etc. Two in particular called me their "Shaman Mentor", haha. And over the last few months it has given me a new sense of confidence that is, little by little, spilling over into this reality. So maybe I've gotten what I needed out of WoW. I'm sure I'll still raid regularly, though perhaps I'll complain a bit less about it being somewhat stuck in a less-than-hardcore guild.

Anyway, the question remains: Where will I be at the end of 2009? I've bounced around a lot of career ideas lately. I keep coming back to two options. Game programming/design, or 3D animation/modeling. And usually I tend to lean towards the second, especially after watching any Pixar or Dreamworks movie, haha. The attention to detail is simply amazing. While everyone else is following the story, I'm fixated on every slight movement, the perfect balance of synthetic and organic motion, the even distribution of weight and sense of balance...haha! I'm able to enjoy even the most terrible movies if they have fantastic animation. Sometimes I wonder if God feels the same way, looking at our pathetic excuses for lives, noting the fine details that we miss. I wonder if it makes Him smile too.

Well back on topic. Considering Ohio is not exactly THE hub for 3D animation and graphics, I highly doubt my place is here in Dayton, or at least that it will be for much longer. Granted, I'm biased, and would prefer to be closer to Will. Which makes the decision that much more difficult...not knowing for certain that I can be completely honest with myself about where my future really lies. I don't know where he and I will be 6 months down the road. I've had a few people asking about marriage for months now, haha! Being that it's long-distance, while I won't say that it's not a possibility, it is quite a far off one at best. Which, I could argue, is another "good" reason to leave the area; to have the chance to actually get to know each other on a face-to-face level, rather than words on a computer screen and the occasional visit. And for the last several months, that's where I've felt most drawn. I suppose it boils down to this: I am afraid of being wrong...again.

But then...I suppose not everyone learns to fly on the first attempt.

Xposted from my old journal.

February 14th, 2006 (05:11 pm)

I was at a sort of carnival or fair of some type with a friend. We were just sort of walking around looking at all the rides. We went on a bizzare looking ride that was like a cross between a gocart track and a trampoline. We went around a few times, but when we got off, I noticed a big tear in the fabric the cars were driving on. It was big enough for a person to jump down into it. So I went over and jumped down to the ground, and there was some trash and stuff in the grass. But something else caught my eye. There were three large birds lying in the grass: an American fishing eagle (or a very tiny bald eagle), a Eurasian eagle owl, and an African grey parrot. All appeared injured or dead.

I looked at the eagle first. It was lying on its belly/left side (sort of a diagonal), and its wings were together above its back. But they were separated from its body. Not bloody or anything, just...separate, lying on the ground together. But then I looked again, and the wings came to life and rolled themselves onto the back of the eagle, and it came to life. It stood, and flew away.

I went to the owl next. It was laying on it's back, and was missing an eye, but otherwise looked ok. I looked again, and the eye was restored. It, like the eagle, stood and flew away.

Then I went to the African grey. It was in the worst shape. It lay on it's belly, and the legs were twisted and bent underneath it. Several ribs were crushed, and the beak lay open, eyes closed. It should not have survived its injuries, but it did. When I looked again, it was exactly the same, until it opened an eye and looked at me. It let out a faint noise, and sounded as if it was in great pain. I took it in my arms and carried it out, running to find someone to help it. People scoffed, and said to put it out of its misery, but I had to save it. I kept running and running through the crowd, asking anyone and everyone if they could save this poor bird. But no one could, or no one cared.

I woke up before I could do anything else. It was horrible. ;_; I don't know what happened (or would have happened) to it.

I'm beginning to wonder the significance (assuming there is any) of the species...American, Eurasian, African. Hmm.

More and more I wonder if the significance of their names is actually irrelavent. Maybe a bit of personal symbolism. Hm.

I had another one of "those" dreams. It's been a while since the last. A year maybe? I wish I could fully describe what it's like. It's as if you're transplanting your soul into another person's body. Seeing through their eyes. Or maybe just seeing their dreams. I saw his thoughts, though only vaguely. I felt as he must feel. He must dream of her a lot. Not that I blame him. Its such an odd feeling...sharing emotions like that. Especially ones like those. I guess it's meant to give me perspective. A little peek at the cover on the puzzle box. I turned and caught a glimpse of myself. Wishful thinking, I suppose. Or perhaps not. Maybe...maybe he saw through my eyes.

*shudder*

I.
Am.
Insane.
LOL.

I'm working on a web comic for my guild. :D Here is some misc. art stuff I've been working on all day today.



This is a sample comic I made to post on the guild forums. It's quite unfinished, as you can see, lol.

A lion may roar at a hyena...

But who gets the last laugh?

Working design for a quilt. Lol. Yes. I am a glutton for punishment. Why do you ask?

 

This one has a slightly better view of KJ's dramatic entrance and the fight overall.



LOL I think Link had fun with this vid.

 LOL at the end you can hear me go, "YES!...he dropped my main hand!"

KJ down! Alliance first kill on Duskwood server, lol.





( More pics behind the cut... )

WOOT!!! I got my [Hand of the Deceiver]!!! So odd that I got the main hand before the off hand....

Blew ALL my dkp on that bad boy. :D And Farora got his ugly frowny-face helm.
 

 

M'uru down!

Every now and then, I come across things that make me want to go back into the design field.

For instance: http://sinclair.edu/academics/lcs/index.cfm 

Check out this banner (be sure ya look at it full size):


WTF kinda photoshopping is THAT supposed to be?? And a playground? Srsly?

FAIL

Y'know I think I discovered recently that, unless I am around someone a LOT like at school, work, WoW, etc...., I am a really lousy friend.

:(

We killed Felmyst and Eredar Twins finally. I got T6 boots from Felmyst, but nothing I needed dropped from Twins. Woohoo 2-set, lol.

I really should get around to posting screenshots...

I fail at updating. :)

Well my guild has killed Kalecgos now, and Brutallus post-nerf.

Not much else to tell atm. But I'll have some pics/vids from Disneyland soon!

Lol I have a boring life. :) There's never anything good to write about. Well I suppose there kinda is, I just don't think about it til way after.

Anyhoo. I'm goin to see Will (yay!) in less than 2 weeks. I get to spend a week in San Diego with my tree. Charlie's gonna come hang with us for the weekend too. Should be fun. We haven't decided if we're gonna crash Blizzcon, or just go to Disneyland. Gonna be a lot of folks at Disney who, like us, got screwed out of con tickets because of Blizz's shoddy site store.

Oh and my guild is finally pushing into Sunwell. Kalecgos attempts ftw...

Found something fun to do while sitting out of raids. :)

http://www.spore.com/view/profile/Windyote

Oh yeah, and the stupid bow dropped again last week. GG.